Volume 25: Chapter 2: The Reintroduction of Me

Have you ever felt like every year that passes by, resemble each other? You could be in a new place, meet new people, and yet, somehow, it feels like the same year all over again? For the past 2 years, I think I have been on cloud 9. Allowing life to past by me and as long as I did one or two cool things, I considered this "Living." But, I wasn't, not one bit. I have been unproductive, sulking, unintentional, and careless. I have not been outside my comfort zone, and began to love the small box I decorated for myself. Because, when you get comfortable in your box, you might as well decorate it, right?

I let go of who I wanted to be, who God called me to be, and settled for who I use to be, and who the enemy told me I was. But, I don't want the image to be perceived, that the past two years were miserable. Oh, because on the contrary, they were not. I travelled, I laughed, I spent time with friends, I dated, I did more than two cool things, I enjoyed the past two years. But, though I enjoyed it, none of that penetrated the surface. None of this, changed my character, none of this enhanced my thinking. It was worth it, but it wasn't lasting. Now, here we are in 2023, and I decided I no longer want to settle for the person I have been for so long. I want to be who God called me to be, who I envision myself to be. I want the phrase we say every year so casually, "New year, New Me," to be genuine. And for that, I have to reintroduce myself. (Hey, Siri play "Public Service Announcement by Jay Z).

This reintroduction, isn't just for social media, it isn't just for friends, isn't just for family, it's for ourselves. Sometimes, we have to look ourselves in the mirror and just reintroduce ourselves, or maybe for the first time, introduce ourselves. Because, maybe you and I, have been someone else for so long, we never even met who we are. Sometimes, we don't always notice, when we are on the conveyor belt. We just know it's time to get off. But, this happens because it's comfortable, it's all we know, and it's safe.

Maybe this post doesn't relate to you at all, and you're probably thinking "Nope never felt like this, I know who I am." Well, I am overjoyed if that is you, because You are walking in your truth, and walking in who you know you are. But, life is about leveling up and growing. So, if this doesn't relate to you, can you honestly answer and say there is no area in your life that doesn't need to be inspected and sifted through? I ask because, if you have been reading along on every post, you can quickly notice the common theme. Self-development. So, maybe this post isn't for you, but there is always room for self-development because, we are ALWAYS developing.

In order to make this year different from all the rest, we have to stop showing up as who we use to be. We have to begin showing up as who we envision our best and highest self to be. That is where the change will begin, where the story really changes. This won't be a walk in the park, maybe, similar to a walk in the rainforest lol. It's going to be difficult, exhausting, time-consuming, and too much. But, it will be a point in our lives, where we will notice a positive shift. Where God begins to use us, where everything we mapped out or some things even better begin to occur. And, when it's time to reflect, we will look back at the process and see how necessary it was; and be happy we didn't settle for the less and embraced the more.

"The First Step to making any major change in your life is always awareness." - Jen Sincero